This Friday evening , while I was curled up in your lap, my little Puttu, I felt so warm... and suddenly, this little feeling crept in—someday I’m going to miss this so badly (even though it’s far away!). One by one, all your cutest little moments started dancing through my head—like a slideshow made of love. The way you keep sniffing the air, trying to catch the irresistible aroma of fresh ghee... the way your eyes light up when dosa starts bubbling on the hot tawa, and you suddenly shout, “Uppittu Ammaaa!! Very me, very me, very me!!” I see myself in you completely. And oh, how you go after AppaChaami’s life too—“Me me me ONLY!”—not even sparing him! And that sudden shout of “Appa bandavu!” with full excitement as we both peek through the window when AppaChaami arrives… and then you go running and hugging him tight like you’re seeing him after 10 years! Appa’s face literally glows like a 100-watt bulb. And my heart? It just bursts with love. Your happy dance when semige st...
It was during my 7th month… she had told me, "I dunno why, but the day I heard you conceived, I just had this in my mind to give you… and I will give you soon." After that, we couldn’t meet.And then, after delivery, she finally gave me that gift . That evening, after finishing all my baby chores, I sat eagerly waiting to open it.And when I did… it was Laddu Gopal!!! πWith all the tiny little accessories', I was so, so, so happy!!! But at the same time, one doubt popped in my mind— "How will I be able to do all those rituals???" I texted her—half joy, half fear. She replied, "I had this instinct that you will deliver a lil Krishna the day I heard you conceived. That’s why I wanted to give you this. And tell me—are you not bathing your baby? Are you not dressing him up? Are you not feeding him? Are you not singing lullabies to put him to sleep? Are you not pushing yourself beyond everything just to see him in peace? That’s all it is." Tha...
Even though there was so much work waiting at his desk, nothing I said could distract him. No stories, no toys, no gentle bribing. His little heart had already decided — he simply wanted to be in that room. At first, I was annoyed. But when I finally asked, “Shall we sit on the chair next to Appachaami?” his eyes lit up, and suddenly it all made sense. He wasn’t asking for play or attention. What he longed for was simply Appachaami’s presence. And it struck me, because I’ve felt the very same. There are days when I have a holiday but he doesn’t. On those mornings, when he says he might go to the office so he can return early instead of late, I’m left with this quiet emptiness. Not sadness exactly — just a hollow space. Even when we’re both at home, he is often lost in his work and I in mine. We may not talk much, yet his nearness itself fills the room. Just his presence is enough. That day, Puttu too found his wholeness in silence. He sat content beside Appachaami — coloring his book,...
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