Laddu Gopal!!!

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 It was during my 7th month… she had told me,"I dunno why, but the day I heard you conceived, I just had this in my mind to give you… and I will give you soon."After that, we couldn’t meet.And then, after delivery, she finally gave me that gift.

That evening, after finishing all my baby chores, I sat eagerly waiting to open it.And when I did… it was Laddu Gopal!!! 💛With all the tiny little accessories', I was so, so, so happy!!!

But at the same time, one doubt popped in my mind—
"How will I be able to do all those rituals???"

I texted her—half joy, half fear.
She replied,
"I had this instinct that you will deliver a lil Krishna the day I heard you conceived. That’s why I wanted to give you this.
And tell me—are you not bathing your baby?
Are you not dressing him up?
Are you not feeding him?
Are you not singing lullabies to put him to sleep?
Are you not pushing yourself beyond everything just to see him in peace?
That’s all it is."

That hit me. 💫
I realized—some find their peace by doing rituals for Laddu Gopal,
some by helping others,
some by dancing,
some by not hating a single life on earth,
some by singing.
It’s all just… what their heart chooses.
Simple Adhyatma.

Every Janmashtami, I remember this.
And honestly, every passing minute I remember how deeply obsessed I am with this little human of mine.

The nights I cannot sleep without him in my arms.
The way he whispers—
"Amma, kondaata maadamma" 💕
"Amma, yenna gatti hidko Amma."

OMG. Melts me every single time.

Even on rushed mornings when I have to leave early, his soft plea—
"Amma beku, Amma beku" 🥺
How can I resist??

It’s me who made him stick to me.
How can I now tell him not to?
I go back, and the way he searches for my arms…
the way his little hands touch my face just to make sure— “It’s Amma.”

Maybe finding GOD (total bliss?!)
is just this. Each one finds it in their own way. 🌸



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